Before I came to The Secret Place ministries I lived in Las Vegas. I was at a point of hopelessness, no dreams or ambitions for the future; I saw no light at the end of the tunnel. I had nothing to care for and nothing to hope in. I was partying and smoking marijuana all the time trying to escape, numb, suppress, disconnect from my feelings and emotions I was very unsuccessful and more and more often no matter what I did the pain remained and became more prevalent with a combination of twisted thinking from not being in the right mind; the enemy had a field day with my trying to take my life. I had shallow relationships with family and friends, I trusted only my best friend in my life and we only discussed suicidal tendencies. With my mind deteriorating and my happiness gone for years now, suicidal thoughts and ideas of attempts were more and more developed in my mind. Just before I left Las Vegas I turned everywhere I could and tried to make things work for me. Every option I had the door closed and I came to realize more and more I had nothing to keep me in Vegas. My sister called me in 2010 many times inviting me to The Secret Place. I denied her time and time again trying to find the happiness I was looking and seeking for trying to create it or find it myself. My last attempt to control my own life was when I tried signing up for the air force. I was headed for the testing to enter the air force when two times situations raised that did not allow me to follow through with my plans. "It seemed as if something was keeping me from going that route really". Finally when every option of living in Vegas was closed in my face I had the options of being homeless or giving everything up to live in a ministry. I decided I would visit my sister until I could leave as quickly as possible to the air force. I sold my car for enough money to get a bus ticket. I gave my goodbyes and headed out. I arrived in Springtown Texas and my second day here I went to the deliverance seminar. I thought, "These people are crazy and that's what Christians are especially these ones". I started to feel something happening halfway through the seminar. For some time following that, my feelings and life began to change. I had hope but I wasn't sure what to hope for. The more time I spent in the ministry the more I was submerged in the Bible and felt God start to move in my life. Being a reluctant person I tried to explain away my changes with psychological reasoning. I could not imagine a God that knew me personally, I could imagine a God that created earth and gave life but not have a personal relationship with an individual man. Time and hope began to move more and more in my life. Faith really began to develop and I learned of God's love. I learned to give up my life for His daily. I learned that prayer worked. I learned that you could hear exactly what God is trying to tell you from every person around you or from reading the Bible and that when he wants you to learn something he will move heaven and earth to teach it to you. I learned about sanctification, and faith, and love and compassion and grace and mercy. Not the definitions any man can know but a true understanding in my heart. I now live in the same room that I arrived to sleep in, but now I rent it. I go to The Secret Place church as much as possible, I now have seen many people come through my life, and have become sharpened in many new ways through interaction with the many people I have met and come to know. I have helped to disciple new people coming in and have become an intern at the Secret Place. I have gone through PMT 1, 2, 3 and plan to go on to Internship to give what I have received from my Father God. I want to help people receive knowledge of God as I have received. I want to see men set free and live for God. I go to Weatherford College and currently am in progress of becoming an EMT and in the future a paramedic. I play guitar whenever possible and have hopes and dreams to Master the guitar and play it as a form of ministry. My hope is that others will come to know God as I have come to know Him, and to know Him even more and experience Him in their lives more than I have experienced Him and be blessed more than I have been blessed. That nations may turn to Him and be reconciled to the Father no one knew they had.