By the grace of my loving Father and the power of the Holy Spirit. Given to me in my brokenness. In utter surrender from the total emptiness in the depths of my soul. Some where along the way, when I couldn't fix the people, places, and things around me. I got angry! With others, myself, but most of all God. Broken, I let go of the Lords hand. When I could no longer take the pain of my emotions. I drowned the hurt at the bottom of a bottle. I was the daughter, sister, wife, mother, the drunk aunt that every family dreaded on special occasions. I couldn't look in the mirror, that person looking back at me was so painful! Ten years of loss. My father, mother, two brothers, and my husband gone. With ever loss it took more to kill the pain. So I got this bright idea. Sell everything I owned, it would lighten my load and I'd have no responsibility and the burdens of life would be lifted. Wrong! I still had me. And I could not yet face the person that was in the mirror. So I got myself together. Went to rehab. Which was very enlightening. Got everything straight in my head. Went home with the hope that I could do this. Only to fall on my face. Realized my only hope was spiritual healing, so I reached up and took the hand I'd let go of so many years ago. The mighty hand of God. To my surprise he lead me to the mirror. Not in the physical sense. But in others! It seems the brokenness in others that I couldn't fix years earlier, was the very brokenness that he wanted to restore all along. Now when I look in the mirror I see the restoration power of the Holy Spirit. And in my reflection, the resemblance of my Savior Jesus Christ!